Reflect

I've been here in Sheffield for 8 months and looking back every little bits of life adds up to a beautiful chapter of my life. I remember complaining everyday during my first few months and counting the days until i go home..then i realised, took me 6 months, that God brought me here for a reason, and He carries me through every steps i take, if i opened up my heart. Everyday is a gift, a blessing, a chance to experience God's love and guidance and in turn to share the joy and love with others. I'm amazed with life's little miracles each day. This sight caught my eye on my way to church. Such beautiful flowers growing on the brick walls. With God nothing is impossible, even if we are in the most adverse situation, having faith and following His words, we can still experience joy. They might seem to be ordinary wild flowers on ground but here on this unlikely place, they outshine.

Our studio session :)

It's the last day of having class for my first year.. i can't imagine how fast time flies..i was sitting in our studio listening to presentations from each group and i was wondering..the next time all of us would be in the same studio together would be 4 months later..which hurts a corner of my heart..
I still remember the first day i stepped into this studio..i was so scared..stepping into the unknown with all unfamiliar faces, i didn't even dare to raise up my head to look around..i felt i was the only one who didn't know anyone..throughout the year, i've not only developed skills for my course but have also learnt life's little lessons..and meeting some really nice people :)

Life in Sheffield

Very very homesick..
People ask me how am i doing?
I always say the same thing: I want to go home.
First few days were horrible.. I was all alone, msn didn't work, no music, lost, scared... shut myself in my room, cried.
But now i am used to being lonely, or as Ruben says, being alone =)
It can be a precious time too ^^ discovering surprises around on my own, seeing beauty around, things that make me smile without me realising :)
One thing i find interesting is meeting people who look and behave very similarly to the people i know back home ;)I met one German guy who looks like Daniel Koh, and talks in the same way and his facial expression too! I met a guy from Hong Kong who reminds me of Andrew Chong, a girl from China who looks a lot like Kai Xun, a Malaysian guy who looks and talks like Tya!!! and a Vietnamese guy who is just like Addison>< I guess there are many more out there too^^
Yes.. meeting people is interesting, but is also a tough job for someone shy and quiet like me...
Sometimes things do not go well..
But i feel really thankful when meeting the nicest people around :D

Tired but touched =)

Today we painted our 1st banner for the Open Day Quiz. Actually i was quite stressed out lately, but, seeing the banner done, before my eyes, with the effort of the nicest people i know, was very touching for me^^ I get stressed always,and easily, over the tiniest thing. But one thing i know now, stress can be fun, when you have people who care around you to back you up ;)
I got a gift from Soh today, who's now studying in China. Thank you Soh :D
It's a very inspiring book. I'll start reading the book from today onwards and post my favourite qoutes here^^
Feel thankful, for everything...
But sometimes i resist nice things that happen, because for me, everytime good things happen, bad things follow. I don't like to get overjoy for one moment and the next down to negative. It's a cycle to me, i still can't figure out why...
Maybe if you don't feel pain, you don't know what is joy, and vice-versa.
Life.

Keep holding on

Haiz.. miss you guys o... though i don't know each of you well, shy bah... But just listening to you guys crazying around gives me much fun =)
We are each of us different from each other in many ways, but there is this special bond that connects, though thin, but definitely strong.
Each of us is a piece of individual puzzle, beautiful on its own, and belong to other sets of puzzles. But when we fit together, it shines :) Cheers peps ^^

Reflect

Just two weeks ago i was complaining that i was bored till rot, now i barely have time for myself. I challenged mum, that by the end of this year, i would pull my little bro's grades up and up, coz we all have been neglecting him since he started schooling. Mum cancelled his tuition. So i'm now his full time tutor, morning and night. Takes a lot of patience... and need to understand a bit of children psychology also.. like not losing temper, not raising your voice, try to read along with him, relate his studies to things around him, and the most challenging one for me, to get him not to be distracted.
So i only have the afternoons not occupied. But these two weeks have to rush for the decoration of our little environmental corner for open day.
I only have time for myself like now, before i sleep.
I am always looking for something out there, to achieve. And not realising that i'm missing out those which are already there.
When something came across my mind, like emailing cousins who are far away, reaching out to a friend, being nice to someone, doing someone a favour... i always think.. ah, that can wait, i have more important things to do.
Things that really mean much to me are slipping away... What i'm grasping, might be just nothing in the end.
Let things happen naturally,
Listen to your inner voice.
Make the choice that does the most good to others and yourself,
life will open up the path for you.

Today

Got a msg from Hau early in the morning, he asked about recycling =) i thought, why not i clear some of my things too. So i dragged the huge box, which had all the unwanted paper stuff, to the front of the tv, and started sorting. I had fun actually, i saw some of my drawing of years before, which i don't what understand the pictures mean now looking at it. I saw my weekly diary, from primary 5, was a homework actually, and while i was reaing, i actually wondered, did that happen? or i just wrote it for the sake of homework. There are some which are true incidents also, which is so funny. Brought the sorted stuff to school, just in time before counter closed.Feel good, that i cleared what was in that huge box, and that huge box was on the spot between my room and bro's, for more than 1 year, very untidy and unpleasant to look at. Now that it's cleared :) and i did something for the earth, it's a good start though^^
Hau is going for uni soon,in less than 1 month. He's going home tomorrow too. For now, i may not know what it feels like to be parted, but i know it would be scary, that there will be a piece of me missing. We knew this day would come...

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